Countdown to Chemo

I start chemo on Wednesday, so this is the last normal night (where my day tomorrow will be a day that I am familiar with, vs a day where I start a treatment that historically is very hard on bodies). I hadn't considered how strange it would be to have this little countdown. Do I take advantage of the last normal night to have a drink? Do I do something special? These are things I hadn't really considered until a little earlier, and where I've landed is "drinking a non-alcoholic beer and watching a baking show on TV with the cats." This is a very normal night. It's nice. 

I have had a number of moments since my diagnosis where I've thought (and sometimes said out loud): I want to remember how nice this moment was, how normal this weekend was, how lovely it has been to spend this time with the people I love while I'm still feeling good and doing well. I don't want to take this for granted. I want to tuck this memory away so I can revisit it when things aren't going as well, to remember that I will have these moments again. 

I am sitting in a comfortable chair, the weather is perfect, and I am having a lovely evening in my home with my cats. I feel good. I'm grateful to be in a position to go through these treatments, and I'm feeling optimistic about my future.